100 reasons against a few

Time : 7 hrs
My phone beeped and as it was always the sweetest voice that wakes me up for last 22 years 11 months.
Amma : “ kutti time achu da elunthri ma,7 ‘o clock achu da” (baby its getting late wake up dear,its already 7)
Me : “amma 5 mins kalchi elupa konjam neram amma” ( please wake me up after 5 mins mom)
after 10 mins (mom knows )
Amma : “Kutti ma kelmbu,elana office ku late agidum,neethu sonalu time ku poganumna” (baby,get up otherwise it will become late and you said yesterday only you have to be in office by time.
Me: “seri ammu, nan enthirachaten” ( Ok mom i have woken up) with still snoozing the alarm for 5 mins
In those 5 mins first thing that comes to mind is to take rest today but then all pending work comes to mind ( capex scope,pending PR’s, Shutdown planning,defect register ) but that ultimately not wakes me up.
The one other reason that drives is …..!

night talks - frustration

Me : What should i do next?

H: May be you should get back to your home town and take a break,enjoy with family and friends. You have lost your flexibility after being so independent and importance to your closed ones and getting far away from them unknowingly.

M: What stupid you are talking.You have now become more independent women who knows how to carry and manage herself.You have learnt lot of things for life. Work harder and stay hunger ! Dont fall for emotions.

Me : After all i have another night to think about it !

decision pending – continued for …