Wish list part 2

I dream of living by the beach, waking up to the music of waves every day of having the option of walking far into the sea if I find living too tedious.

I dream of watching the full moon from the top of a mountain.

I dream of being able to wear size XS sometime :p

I dream of going to the topmost floor of the tallest building in the world at least once before I die.

I dream of being with a man who doesn’t need to think twice about being with me.

I dream of being told ‘I love you’ in a way that, when he tells it, I’ll know there isn’t a bigger truth in the world.

I dream of a home of my own, that I can call my very own, and I’ll fill it up with lots of books. A home where music will play all the time, even if no one is consciously listening to it. A home where my kids will grow up drawing on the wall (only one single wall, dedicated to them. If they ruin all the walls, I'll make them only scrub it).

I dream of going on a mini-vacation, a break of sorts, once in three months- maybe not necessarily to a new place, but just any place, to get away from the monotony. I like routine, but monotony scares me.

I dream of being the reason behind at least one person's happiness and smile.

I dream of being in a relationship where our silences are just as comfortable as the conversations are effortless.

I'm one of those who, like John Lennon said, if ever asked "What do you want to be in life?" will simply answer "Happy".

I know these are way too much but wish it comes true:)

Happiness it is

Happiness is writing the weird and funny dreams you have everyday and reading them later
Happiness is seeing a little buds of flower coming up in each day in your balcony
Happiness is feeding peacocks,squirrels,pigeons during the morning walk
Happiness is having home made food

Disappointments

Why can't everyone be just happy already..

damn things

the nuisances i came across in last 2 days...

The person next to me in train was snoring continuously whole night inspite of politely expressing my  uncomfortability to sleep...people have turned so mean nowadays.

This movie named erundam ulagam i watched along with my friends literally spoiled the evening , the most dumbest message how can physical appearance of your loved one is much more important and continue in different worlds???

why do people keep on saying the same thing 'n' number of times and poke their nose in others personal interest... stay away from such neighbours

the year it was

Yet another year 2013, coming to an end and looking back i would like to list the happenings in life not in any particular order though.

A new addition to our family...yep my brother got engaged with M , all excited about their wedding and wish them all the happiness in their journey :)

My new affinity towards fitness and lost quite a few pounds something i always wanted to but never gave it a shot  *happy flying *

I had always dreamt of  driving a car and travel to many places but 2 months back only successfully got my driving license-hurray !!!

My new initiatives to learn badminton,swimming,yoga,cook fish,singing,try dieting turned out to give a handful of experiences...

 " Passion " after 2 years i could finally give some shape to my story writing skills and in final stage of completing my first book.

This birthday i got my new two wheeler activa white and back on wheels riding it in the streets of coimbatore- just love it ...



....feeling very blessed to live and eagerly waiting for life to move on and unfold the surprises...

In Love with Life
GD

Things !?

All the things in the world can be categorised into 3
Things you know
Things you don't know
Things you don't know that you don't know...

Yummy for d tummy :-P

I seriously can't resist it :-)

Update # 28112012

Swimming : day 1, coldness,fear of water !
Workout : overwhelmed lazy mornings !
Interest : andriod applications , online reviews and goggling !

Courtesy : 25

Sometimes i think that one thing i love most being an adult is the right to shop things whatever i want :-P

dates cake

cheers J and L :)

Ferrero rocher

i seriously can’t resist it …!

reactions

@ 6: 45 am i hardly could open my eyes but still i managed to switch on the heater and reached back to bed again for the tiny nap – as “lazy” always

@ 8:45 am reached to office it was “empty” everyone had a reason to be out of office /come later

@ 12:40 pm the feel of “hunger” and “desire” to make sambhar and carrot porrial

@ 4:00 pm Sometimes you have to “compromise” your resolutions and be good for the sake even if you really don’t want to be so .

@ 11:00 pm only i can be so non reactive !

funny :P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YR12Z8f1Dh8

distance la moonu moonu.. moonu colour white,white background nightu nightu .. nightu colour black !

the out break

I couldn’t hide my jealousness over the happenings and felt very embarrassed expressing it .

Why do i still hope it would be better if things return their way back :/

:)

It feels so good to live in a clean room :)

thanks Sunday !

note: Self reminder G do it regularly :P

In last few months

lot of (day)dreams,change of priorities,got habitual to night time stories,avoiding new acquaintanceship,uncertain/confused thoughts dominance,some best time of  life,lot of smiles and few disappointments,late night sleeps(complete prison break addiction :P),some scribbling,experiment with food,love on life !

the weird talks

It was 12 past thirty ,I was half asleep when my cell rang and I came to know about the least thought of life

“Rotate your left thumb in clockwise slowly and now rotate your right thumb slowly anticlockwise,now rotate them at the same time.Now see where they both meet each other”

This is called present where the past meets the future !

Source : unknown

why?

why is it that things which we try to get out of always stays for the longest within..why is it hard to find people who could understand the complexities involved in your thought process..why is it that people to whom we could confide everything often far away from us..Why is there expectations on someone to understand despite knowing they will hardly..why is some situations have no choices left..why is that when something has multiple meanings people tend to chose the most wrong one..why is life ironic..

3 resolutions for month

• Not to mess up my room
• To spend some me time daily
• Cook by self and eat food

wish list

I was just inspired to write it after wondering things i always dream of

1) To cook good and edible stuff - easier way to get appreciated :P

2) To go on air diving,mountain climbing - exicting one!

3) To have matching accessories for all my clothes :)

4) To drive all alone  for long distance in rain .

5) Go on world tour starting with venice - such a romantic place :)

6) To own a factory that produces pastries,ice-creams,chocolates indefinitely :P

7) To do stupid and craziest things without being caught - just for fun :)

8) Gift to sleep the moment i wish to - the most important :P

9) To start business of my own :)

10) To see horror film without closing eyes alone !!!

11)To curl my hair more - with the rings falling on shoulder :)

12)To get one set hassle brown and light blue lens !

13)To publish my own book - atleast a good seller :)

14) To have a candle light dinner - ofcourse with someone special :)

night walk @ omaxe

The place where i stay  is a colony sort of which is hardly 2 kilometres from my work place.From top of my terrace i could see the entire plant view .In the night the lights glittering around is an awesome scene with tall stacks and chimneys surrounded by mountains.In our colony there are around 500 houses and entire complex is well bounded by 5 feet wall and car parking around the boundary. The whole place in between the apartments is covered with grasses, flowers of different kinds, small fountains , parks and benches to rest by.There is a track around along the run of the wall.
After the night meal i use to take a walk round the colony in the track.There comes a place near Tb 7 (i guess ) the water treatment plant where the sound of it makes me feel that “every thing has same purpose to do”. As few steps further in the corner is the place that remains so calm inspite of all the meddling  and it makes me feel the silence of night and dark.The cold air dashing through gives the feel of freshness to wipe off all the confusions puzzling round the mind.The sound of the insects alerting the place.Above all the dark sky with no stars glittering trying to say something ( feel of missing the loved ones).I love walking in night .

Away

I wish to stay away from people who fall under the following categories

who can’t keep up their words-smoke a lot-not genuine –don’t care to hear what others say-not humble-discouragers-gossipers-nose pokers-self driven-unpredictable ones.

but why do i have to meet them everyday …

Rain and its magic

It is raining now and i don’t know why it always make me feel nostalgic.Now here i am sitting alone in my bed room and remembering the lost wishes.
1) To drive on light blue scooty pep and go on long distance with little drops of it falling all over and the cold feeling.
2)To swing there by sitting in balcony and reading the twilight series with hot cup of coffee .
3)To go for a walk after the rain has just washed the place the smell , just love it.
4)To listen to my collection of songs with the beats of drops.
5)To gossip and chat whatever with friends sitting there in cafe .
6)To wear my purple rain coat  :)
7) To sit idle and just watch the rain !

100 reasons against a few

Time : 7 hrs
My phone beeped and as it was always the sweetest voice that wakes me up for last 22 years 11 months.
Amma : “ kutti time achu da elunthri ma,7 ‘o clock achu da” (baby its getting late wake up dear,its already 7)
Me : “amma 5 mins kalchi elupa konjam neram amma” ( please wake me up after 5 mins mom)
after 10 mins (mom knows )
Amma : “Kutti ma kelmbu,elana office ku late agidum,neethu sonalu time ku poganumna” (baby,get up otherwise it will become late and you said yesterday only you have to be in office by time.
Me: “seri ammu, nan enthirachaten” ( Ok mom i have woken up) with still snoozing the alarm for 5 mins
In those 5 mins first thing that comes to mind is to take rest today but then all pending work comes to mind ( capex scope,pending PR’s, Shutdown planning,defect register ) but that ultimately not wakes me up.
The one other reason that drives is …..!

night talks - frustration

Me : What should i do next?

H: May be you should get back to your home town and take a break,enjoy with family and friends. You have lost your flexibility after being so independent and importance to your closed ones and getting far away from them unknowingly.

M: What stupid you are talking.You have now become more independent women who knows how to carry and manage herself.You have learnt lot of things for life. Work harder and stay hunger ! Dont fall for emotions.

Me : After all i have another night to think about it !

decision pending – continued for …

letter

Dear God,

     I am one of the homosapiens whom you have created 22 years ,3 months,24 days ago in this world.
I was  blessed with all basic needs one should have- good family,friends and environment,education and other needs- thank you very much.But in recent times due to some reasons  feeling guilty of being depressed and frustrated.

     All i want is to give me courage and strength to lead my life like how i want and make my family feel proud of me and make my presence worth to this world.

Yours sincerely,
gayathri.d

sometimes

Certainly it is not my life- i realized it after the 7 days !

not even me - change !

good to grrrr

I realised that it is always better to have a person with whom i can fight/argue/disagree.It gives

1) A chance to know what they think

2) What things they do when they are terrible

3) They are not as stupid as you think :)

4) how silly fights are !

terminal 1

Excuse me please, i was caught by the different accent ,turned around to see a guy with big bags on one hand and drinks on another.I moved on from there and found myself a seat , waiting for the boarding call .I couldn’t  keep the thought out that after 6 hrs i will be seeing AnA.The things that i like in Chatrapathi airport

It is very lively and happening

I could peep into barista /samosa in corner shop

Books in landmark

Free internet- wifi

People of different kinds

Above all i could find a plane to coimby :)

Got into plane and settled in place,i could hear excuse me please again !

P.S : i wish to stay !

It stands there

dated not so good

It was not a good start today
First i missed the bus from colony went by walk 1.5 kilometre.
No breakfast as it was aloo bonda today :( missing idli and chutney
Finally net got reconnected after paying 4000 bucks after 7 days
Pissed off by as usual bugs in office
Damn connect to the icici web for booking tickets
Lost my favourite blue watch
Performance Appraisal - OMG !

really in terrible mood !

GD in ny so far

Surprised  - He got committed

Happier –  Still Independent

Annoyed  -  Trends

Horrible – ME room,force,trips

Disappointment – Cakes,Chicken,Chocolates,Corn

Interest - Writing stories

Likes – Loneliness

Confused – job carrier

Missing – my family,BF’s(best friends)

Frustrated – ???!!!

Random #03

Date : 25/11/2010
Time : 6:00 PM
Venue : 23A 9W 7034

I was forced to pass the next 2hrs ,things i just remembered

Talked last with amma
Texted to meera
Food had mumbai masala sandwich
Ipod paused @ "en iniya pon nilavae"
Dreamt of riding in waters of Egypt
Googled about air flow loop
Last read book "a romance with chaos"
Received msg from airtel welcomes you to coimbatore

Happy :)!

to be continued !

numbers in my life

3  - my first roll no in school

819647 – 10th grade

267756 – 12th grade

0516112 - college

289546 – office

02/07/(1988-2010) – sshhh !

9894819755 – first mobile no

TN 37 W 2427 – vehicle

6:45 am  – alarm snoozing starts

TB 10/5 – independency

@1234 – secret

M & Me – first !

My phone rang – it was M :)

I should tell how i met M…I was in my 10th grade,and joined my maths tuition classes,on the first day we smiled and exchanged glances and a “hi”,for the next week we discussed on formulas-numbers-sums only,somehow i found for myself both of our frequencies matching.We had no problem then and our discussion includes everything,i could hardly figure out what i had not shared and vice versa.I use to take a walk after the classes were over as my home was near ,M in cycle but for the sake of me,we walk till my home,have a chat for 10 minutes at the corner of my street – thanks for that :)We were in different schools but in 11th i joined the same school but different sections then too we tried to do our pranks and gossiping at all available time. It is usually either M / M i call like whenever i am upset-excited-bored-embarrassed-happy does it need any reason to call ?  Our taste were so similar enough in all stuffs.That is how i found and M became part in my life :)

I could recollect some of trademark statements of M:

OMG…. so many crazy fans !

Try to be like me !

Why am is so good? !

You can’t find a friend like me!

Missing you  !

btw the call lasted for an hour and all the silliest to serious discussion went on , made my day again !

now

I can speak hindi to which others can understand and respond
I can sit alone and eat at a restaurant
I can manage myself not to be broken easily
I can adjust beyond my tolerance
I can manage without coffee
I can wake up without an alarm
I can read even if i am not alone
I can live all alone
I can change

New interests

To have long hair

To take more photos

To travel alone

To learn new languages

....

• felt more secure and kiddish
• slept peacefully with good happy dreams
• did lot of shopping
• played guitar

after really long time !

@ TB 10 /5

V left to chennai for her better future all the best :)This leaves me alone in the flat.The first two days i spent most of time with others but special thanks for M and V,they never left me alone to feel the loneliness.I am not a great cook but can manage with not so round chappathis,can taste better sambhar,average rasam,good at upamaa and potatoe fry only( owe to the experience i had ).I am not afraid of ghosts,but nowadays there are lot of other things that keeps me preoccupied ! The best thing of being alone is i am solely responsible for whatever happens,no interferences:). The day starts with a hot cup of coffee- i am just a freak- esp amma's filter coffee missing it :(. If my mind permits to get up earlier than i will prepare lunch else manage it in the mess (except the raitha nothing tastes good),then in office - !@#$%^&* mostly it will be 8 or 9 when i am back to my room,wash my clothes,cook some simple food refer to menu but it is usually the 2 mins food or my good @ food (upama). I plan a lot of things but all end in vain -work out for atleast an hour to refresh my knowledge,newspaper(nowadays it is used for other purposes :l),talk with friends,and one long pending job is to sort out my stuff :X

I miss life's most small but priceless happy moments here but on the other way learnt life's most priceless lessons.


P.S : no one calls me gayu/gaya here :((spl concern) !!!

night of dreams

Surprisingly i slept before 12 and there was more awaiting …

I had a bunch of absolutely unrelated dreams.

Chocolates,ice-creams,childhood friends - happy

Examination hall,question paper,time,blank-failure

Fan,boiler,trip,force,feedback- stress

Blue,stars,night,dark – loneliness

Idli sambhar,curd rice,mush room briyani – longing

P.S : It was 4 am and i was alone in my room ,slept back but this time no dreams !

Random #@ 22

Law of attraction

The more i avoid ,more i start liking and probability getting higher!

….

This is all about HIM

He saw the world before me,may be to welcome me :)

He loved all the things as the same way i did.

He and I could share the worst of jokes end up laughing for even nothing.

He had inspired me in many times and admiration on him never declined .

He is my best partner for doing pranks and god those are the happiest days of life,wish i could turn back time.

He taught me to play cricket,ride vehicle,pointers in ‘C’,introduced to F1,dosa point,chicken soups and lot more .

He and I had fights for million silly reasons and i love irritating him and vice versa.

His care has no bounds – simply him.

He is always generous enough to gift me with things i like :)

He is the most decent  guy i had ever seen in my life – he is still single – i wonder how ?

The most wonderful creation of god for me :)

Yours loving little sister

MY day in phases….

The day i like and expect right from kid to now is nothing but Sunday :)
In my primary classes Sunday was the day i can sleep without worrying about the school van horn at 7 am and can watch Popeye show to captain planet without interruption,play with my friends and dad will surely take us out for a movie,hotel,park or somewhere outside.

Then in my higher secondary things started taking different path,no longer free Sundays,it was always engaged with hectic schedules of phy-che-math routine tests,but i enjoyed and liked it sort of.The best part being returning home exhausted will definitely have special mom dinner followed by fighting with brother :)

Coming back to Sunday ,in college GOD again saved me,ours had no classes on weekdays most of time,then can imagine Sunday,it was always a 2 day treat and i use to plan one and land up with doing nothing but nothing:). Here goes plan Friday eve

J: hey we have to study x and do all lab stuff also read 1 chapter in Y

me: fine done sure

Sunday mid-evening,you can call it night

me: hey have you completed?

J: I haven't touched anything :) but can we modify it slightly?

me: sure what?

J: You do this part and myself the rest?

me: that is excellent :)

Monday morning

Me and J blinking and doing all of them in class,college rocks :)

My Sunday plan movie(source:N from hostel,Preferred languages: Anything provided subtitle doesn’t count if the hero is smart:),ended up watching one Korean and telugu movie for the same reason)- shopping with mom-gossiping over phone-meeting school friends-cleaning-washing bozo !

Wow Sunday – “athu oru kalam”  - if i can rewind i would definitely go to this phase :)

Now Sunday -

The only day i can relax myself-away from office-gchat with friends-wash clothes-cook properly-take nap in noon-official day for SLEEPING with alarm off nothing else :) A day for myself !

SUNDAY – in next upcoming years?

Random#12

 

Avoidance of intimate person ‘a’ches !

Behaviour is not habitual – ‘a’ pproved !

Craziness requires no ‘a’ cquaintance !

Disliking – a way of liking ‘a’lways !

First Likings

• I was no exception to fall in liking for the dolls as a tot , i had my first barbie at the age of 8 years,i named her ‘juno’,she had a long multi-coloured hair and my favourite pass time was to dress her .
• I had my first stage performance in standard one, i acted as the only police in the drama as my co-police was sick on the day of show, only that i could recollect :)
• I had my first ink pen in grade five, it was a fountain pen with stars glittering around,because of that sole reason i can write with it i did some additional homework too :)
• I had my first cooking experience with maggi, i measured exact amount of water and followed the very instructions printed back on it and had a timer to watch out for two minutes, later it was re-boiled to evaporate some water as per my brother’s advice,it tasted good !
• I had my first ladybird cycle Violet colour in class ten, i know it was pretty late, but then she became my best friend.
• I had the strings of guitar touched in class 12th, when my brother was going for classes, then on i started liking guitar- somethings need no reason for liking !
• I bunked my class for first time in second semester and we went for film but later i didn’t bunk any most of the time we were free to go :)
• I had my first salary just 9 months back and i felt more happier spending them for my loved ones.

P.S : Will keep on adding ....

Sequences

Let me prioritise the happenings from new year 2010

1.This new year after 3 long years celebrated with my family AnAnA(Amma,Appa,Anna), really special one.I presented my brother with fastrack watch, but he always give generous gifts like apple-ipod, laptop etc i.e was just a recent updation :)

2.My phone(Nokia 6300) died on 18th feb 2010 :(,though i got a new mobile yesterday"nothing can replace HIM".He was in my favourite colour black,blinking with blue lights stealing looks,miss you!

3.I can't forgot the mumbai to coimbatore flight,i travelled alone with ILLAYARAJ special to give company to my ears and tamil novel but only the HERO was missing anyways ;-)

4.Finally i got graduated on march 19th 2010, cheers to all my friends and had a great time :). “Atha nan pass agitaen” ! I expected a yellow gown and a hat but both were not there, they provided us with black one,again(it looked like advocate sort of) . I remember the oath “ I serve for the welfare of my country and i will keep up it” adieu GCT, athu oru kaalam !

5.I heard two surprising and happy news from P & J , wish them good luck in life!

6.I visited our dream house which we are about to buy :) I and M visited it.
M: Gayu we should also plan something like this and buy for our future.
G: Totally agreed, it should reflect our taste in each thing placed there.
Then i started imagining my dream house, wish in span of 5 years i will give life to it :)

7.After long time i had peaceful sleep on my amma's lap and my health drink BOOST !!!

....

In a state of happiness that is not complete .Unable to enjoy each second though my mind knows the second lost is never gained forever.My mind and heart never waits for my instruction when it comes to certain matters. The probability of them entering is on high note.

Conclusion : "Leave it, Live as it" !

Crazy SHE ...

M : Life goes on nothing interesting happening, so you get married soon.
G : NO way, not now, ( lot of reasons), it is you who have to get married soon.
M : Really ?! Same lot of reasons.
G : hmmm no wait, let me re-think !
M : i know you better :-)
G : definitely ! You should re-think :)

Thunder bolt

Today i saw him again, he was smart, charming and gentle in his way as ever. Before all that i should tell how we met. I was in college and it was my fourth semester exam. I was on my way to home after done with my numerical methods (i was not happy with my performance).It was unusually raining on that hot summer evening,so i need to stop"bozo" (my vehicle). I parked it near a shopping complex. There i saw him in the shop along with his friends. Though there were many equally smart, only he caught my attention. He was in "black" suits and it made him more attractive. I could not take off my eyes. He instantly went into my heart than my mind. I can call it " like " but later like turned to strong obsession and sooner my possession. The rain had stopped and i had no reason to stay there, but it gave me sort of pain to leave that place. I left to home but my thoughts were all about him. But then i was busy with exams and in next 15 days he flashed now and then. Then after that i went to that shop hoping to see him there. Fortunately he was there and i was so happy to see him after a long time. This time i cant resist so i collected information about him. I confirmed whether he will be there tomorrow, so that i can bring my mother. Everything went fine and left home happily with no pain this time. I had hope that my mom will not deny my choice and so she did and decided to come along with me to see him. Next day we both went and saw him where i first met and she too liked him. Finally i got him home with me forever, "MY HERO PEN". For quite sometime i was not using him. But now i will forever.

Lighted up

This is my first diwali away from home and i felt i am cursed to celebrate here in this deserted desert of rajasthan. Though others were planning for buying new dresses,crackers, sweets and rest of their plans didnt even get into my mind.But things are not actually what they appear to be. It was the eve before deepavali that changed my whole mood. There were lights lighted from mud houses to multi-storey buildings. For a moment i felt everything around me illuminated ( it was the light mela ).You can find only lights everywhere and it was for more than 5 km, that golden sparkle gives hope of prosperity,fragrance of flowers happiness, sweet and fast food stalls at every corner tempting you to eat. I just enjoyed the evening. Even if i am at my home i would ve probably ended up in sitting before the tv watching some celebrities giving interview or non sense of that kind.This time i could see how different people celebrate and share their happiness with others. On diwali it was even more new,i bursted crackers with people whom i have never met till that moment. It was a tamil family residing over there. I can never forget this diwali in my life.Life sometimes gives you things that you never asked for.